ive reached that place again.. a hole in my mind..

it always goes here to hide and i always follow, chasing it..

its so inviting.. just keeps pulling me in..

do i resist temptation? no.. i wanted to come here..

the darkness surrounds me.. yet its nice to be free..

its so easy to let go here.. my hands wonder anywhere they please..

do anything they want to my body.. my mind doesnt care..

shadows moving to comfort me from a harsh reality..

why cant i face the truth..

its a dark place.. i cant see the light..

ive shut everything out.. this always happens..

i let my mind wander n it drags me down with it..

truthfully, i dont care..

i wish i could stay suspended in ignorance..

from the outside.. i look dead..

people look in.. they see nothing..

im so pathetic.. but who cares..

theres nothing to see here.. what was left of me is gone..

nothing has meaning here.. i like it that way..

i just want to get away.. yet your still here..

i cant bring myself to do what i need to..

i shouldnt be here..

someone.. help me.. search for me..

please rescue me before i find myself..

before i hurt myself..

i might not make it this time..

i hope i dont..

im sorry for everything..

please forgiv me..

i cant take this anymore..

this is my happy ending...